In gratitude, Kambo

Thank you for the softness you have shown me.  For the de-conditioning that was needed to move forward in peace.  For helping me to remove the veil so I could move towards a place of lightness and being.  For helping me to stand still in this space that allows me true freedom.  Freedom from barriers and expectations,  from grief and heartache.  To allow me to experience life around me without the hardness and boundaries that have kept my experiences rough, that have kept me sheltered, that have prevented me from moving forward in peace. 

Thank you for allowing me the space I needed to step fully into myself and for bringing me through the hardness to discover the softness.  Through your gentle guidance I accept that in my divine state both exist within me and are meant to live in harmony.  I am rest and wakefulness.  I am indulgent and scarce.  I am the sun and the moon.  I am a fighter and a lover.  I rest and I create.  I listen to the sounds of my heart in tune with the beat of the universe.  I listen and I move with the flow of the universe.

I can have strong feelings and aspirations and be soft in my desires and approach.  I can be lit up and fiery and still be grounded and earthly.  I allow myself to feel what I need to feel at any moment.  Permission to move into that space and breathe into what I need.  To be who I am in any given moment.  I tune in. 

I listen and follow my instincts because they will always guide me on the right path.  And because I know how to discern my fears from my truth, I am aware of the times when fear speaks louder than my instincts.  In my wisdom I know how to quell the fear that rises and in my strength I know when to concede to my fears when they feel like too much.  I allow myself to feel in that moment.  I do not reprimand or demonize myself.  I do not consider myself a failure.  I move into it and through it prepared for the next time that challenges arises.

There is no use forcing myself to experience something I do not feel ready to handle in that moment.  If it will case me more angst and exhaustion then it does not seem like a worthy opponent.  And I know that in allowing that opportunity to pass by, that lesson to be missed, another one of worthy value will arise at a later time in its place when the time is right.  And when that happens maybe I will be ready to receive all of the beautiful lessons that will come in its aftermath. And maybe I won’t.  But I am grateful to have the opportunity to choose. 

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