Your peace is within and without. It exists in the sounds, in the noise – that which you resist so much. That which so often annoys you – that is your peace. Your peace and joy comes from without and it is in these experience that one feels whole, feels complete. It is in these experiences that one truly finds peace – finds enjoyment and the beauty and solitude of life that is to be shared with others.
This is the time of balance. That which you seek in solitude, in restful states and in quiet times do not allow for peace. For it is in this very belief that this is where you will find it is exactly what becomes your downfall and precisely why you haven't found it. You are expecting -you are setting up a scenario perfectly in alignment with what you believe based on what others have told you and therefore based on what you expect. And yet it doesn’t happen. And despite this, you continue to show up and continue to try and the more you try the more you fail and the more you fail the more you doubt yourself.
What if I told you that peace is already found – peace is now – peace is not in the solitude it is not in the quiet – peace is in the noise it is in the spaces the cracks and the crevices all around you. It is in the noise, it is in the brightness, it is in the sounds all around you – that is peace. You don’t understand because you have been taught to believe it is not so – you have been taught to believe that it is in silence one finds peace and yet in silence as much as noise is where true peace exists.
What is noise – what is sound what is distraction? It is a moment of awareness that life is too much that life feels overwhelming that life is beautiful. That life is full of moments, full of possibilities, of creation - that life exists. It is in the noise that life is real that life comes to life. What we see is not real – but what we hear is.
What about people who are unable to hear? Sometimes people need balance – extreme balance because the sounds would become too much for them so they learn to adapt to life with a delicate balance – of needing both their understanding of noise as they know it and life as they see it – that is their balance. Your balance is the sound itself – it is not what you see – it is what you hear what you feel. When your sound is off balance then so are you – your sound is your equilibrium.
Imagine for a moment that you could no longer hear. What would you feel? I’d feel like half of me was cut off – I’d feel sadness at not being able to hear my children laugh or speak – I’d feel lost – sound is my balance. The thoughts in my head would get to be too much – because it is the only sound I hear – my thoughts – I can’t turn my thoughts off – they would literally eat me alive. I wouldn’t know what was real and what wasn’t – I’d experience things but that wouldn’t seem real – it would seem fake, like a movie – I wouldn’t know what was real and what wasn’t – I would panic. I’d get lost in my own head – in my own story – in my own mind.
You can’t shut off your thoughts and yet it serves as a reminder that you are at peace – at perfect balance with life. Imagine a seesaw that moves up and down depending on what is weighing it down on either end. And in the moment of perfect balance both ends line up perfectly and it is as though time stands still for a brief moment before the distribution of the weight comes back into place and one end rises while another falls. That is your balance with life – with peace. When everything aligns perfectly and there is a moment of calm before everything falls back into place as it should be – as it must be for life to continue to be lived – to progress. Peace exists in those split seconds, those instances of pure alignment where in comes balance - equal distribution of weight on both sides of the spectrum.
So how do I balance noise and quiet? It already happens. When there is noise there is no quiet and when there is no quiet there is noise. It is not about control it is about letting go. In the noise – living in the noise feels overwhelming – it feels like too much. It feels like I don’t have control. Precisely – because you don’t have control – it is in the noise that you let go because you don’t have control -you can’t control the noise around you – you can’t control anything. So peace is not peace of mind peace is letting go.
Noise pulls you in – it forces you to be present – in the moment. When you resist the noise you are trying to reset to a state of being that does not exist – it cannot exist in that moment and it won’t happen with you trying to force it – if anything you will be even more distracted with thoughts, feelings, emotions and frustrations over everything that has distracted you. It is letting go and allowing the moment to be exactly as it is – to be present and to allow completely – it’s a call for peace.
The more you hear the noise, the more you feel distracted and then the more at peace you will become because the more present you will be. Peace is presence. Noise pulls you into the present, into the moment, into your feelings. Feelings about the person talking, feelings about the song playing, feelings about your thoughts about your feelings. It pulls you out of the light and into the shadow so that you are able to work through them – not ignore nor hide – but to face them and move through them – that is peace.
Noise brings us back to reality – that which we live in – it brings us face to face with our resistance – with that which we do not want to face with that which we want to pretend doesn’t exist – it brings up all of our issues – our stuff. And it is in the acceptance of noise that we find peace - true peace.